You're wrong Spazz. What you say does matter, to me at least, and others I'm sure. People can forgive and forget and people don't want to dislike you, but you've got to help yourself too. You'll get more than a fair shake if you don't keep shooting yourself in the foot. If you weren't quite so abrasive and quick to take offense - if you'd give others the benefit of a doubt sometimes instead of assuming every little thing is malicious - things would be a whole lot better. You are right about this though - you're not the only one fueling this fire.