Sorry to hear that someone else is going through the loss as I did. I know just how you feel Tom, I lost my best friend Chester of 18 years. He died in my lap 10:PM on 1/23/09 and had to get up the next morning to bury him just out side my window, it was a very hardest thing to do. It's been just over a month and I still find my self looking for him, but you just need to keep in mind all the great memories he brought you. Just writing this is hard to do, so just keep on mind there are a lot of us out there that feel the pain with and for you.