Boredom

[ZEUS]

I went through all that unmotivated depression crap for several years before I finally snapped out of it. It is a really strange feeling - it's like you are more motivated to dig yourself deeper into a pit of unworthiness rather than to climb out of it. The deeper you go, the longer the climb to get out... then you justify the power it has over you and you say you will be that much stronger when you finally climb out because of how much more effort it required to go that much further. You test yourself and force yourself to believe it is for the best. You keep pushing lower and lower until you finally can't see the light at the top of the pit... You won't scream for help to the ones you love most because you feel like you would be a burden in their lives... you instinctively feel the need to protect them and you ultimately feel trapped and alone.

That is how it went for me anyway. I went a LONG way before hitting bottom! The scary thing is... I think I was right; the further down I went, the stronger it made me in the long run. That, or I was overcome by a creature of the dark that will never leave me... BUHAHAHAHAHA... shrug.

Not that you want advice, but the best advice I could give is to lean on your wife when you need her the most. The difficult times are actually less of a burden on her AND you when you face them together openly. Of course, I have been single my whole life sooo...

[nfpgasmask]

Clint. I am 100% with you brother. Lets get together AND DO SOME STUFF. This weekend my mother-in-law is in town, but sometime soon I really want to get down to the Yosemite area and do some camping and snake/salamander hunting. I just gotta find a rubber boa and some salamanders (but not to eat, Ldub ). I also want to canoe some more. So lets make some plans!

Another thing that I want to seriously engage in, is some of my short film ideas, and I NEED people to help me out. Back in Chicago, I had a lot more friends who were into it. And if you are willing to act a little crazy and put yourself into a somewhat uncomfortable position for a few hours on the weekend, and you like movies, than let's talk! I am trying to recruit people that might be interested in working on some of my ideas, and some of theirs also, cause its a blast! I really wish I could get a fleet of VXes together for a few scenes also....so if you got any movie ideas, lets here em!

Anyway, I feel the same way about eating and getting fat. You described to the T my day to day life. Wake up, work, come home, stuff face, drink beer, go to sleep. Both the wife and I have a membership at Anytime Fitness. I've probably been there 10 times since we enrolled last December. That is pathetic. I also get HELLA depressed about not doing the things I want to do. And yes, sometimes it is hard to talk to the wife about it, because more often than not, her idea of fun is quite a bit different than mine. I mean, we do share a lot of common interests, but she really has no desire to look for snakes, or go shooting in the desert or make movies.

Anyway, we WILL get together and hang out soon.

Bart

[Techy-D]

Yeah, we're here, "we're listening". I believe that just talking about things makes a difference. So, hope we did our part.

Added Bonus: I'd agree about talking to the wife (Not that I know you guys, but she should be your "Goto Girl" when things are pulling ya down - We'll be your "Goto Guys"). I only know this cuz My friends tell me how good it is when they finally work things out with their wives and talk about stuff. As for me??? Always been single and actually feeling a number of emotions this past month also. The only woman in my life (in the last 5 or 6 years) that I was thinking could be "The One", is getting married next week to a guy she's only known since like January! I ask her questions and she says "yeah, that bothers me also,..." Yet, she's getting married????????????????????
Hummm... On the positive side, I trust in the Big Guy Upstairs, and I'm sure he's got great plans for me (This is just a temporary feeling).

[cyronman]

Dude,

I know it must be blazing in Reno this summer, but sunshine, fresh air and a little sweat always makes me feel better.
I've had some really bad days myself since being back from Iraq, but like Zues said you just gotta snap out of it.

I don't know how long you've been feeling lke this, but I think a lot of people go through it and some for long periods of time.
I think people go through stages where they wonder/worry about their future (getting older/finances/careers), etc. and it's a lot to process.
That's brave and healthy of you to post these types of feelings up here, but that's what you need to do is let it out somewhere.

Good luck man,

Cy

[CrnCnn]

Hey all,

Thanks for all the kind thoughts and advice. I don’t know why I get this way but it sucks. I moved here almost 6 years ago to better myself and my “friends” from Tucson really dropped me for the most part, except for one. I have a hard time making friends and have made a few here but nothing real solid.

I am willing to hang out pretty much whenever Bart , you and I get along well I think. You seem to have a lot of knowledge concerning things that interest me. I always work Sundays unless it’s far enough in advance then I can schedule it off. It depends on what kind of uncomfortable you’re talking about by the way.

Kinda crazy going to work too because I just got employee of the month and some of the people who have called me friend act like I’m some high and mighty jerk off all of the sudden. So I’ts no fun going to work.

Rut Rut Rut, stuck in a Rut.

[HOT_WASABI_JUNKIE]

There ain't no cure for the summertime blues.....

The Who

[ZEUS]

Clint, Bart, Beau... maybe we should set a date for that Elko camping trip - it would be good to look forward to getting away for a bit! It would also instilll some motivation, stepping out of the ho-hum boring norm. Money is tight for me too, man... but we don't want to turn into Jack from "The Shining" - gots to have some play time!!! With Bart's imagination and a few brews and a couple VX's in the desert, I am sure we could come up with some ridiculous short film of some sort (The Hills Have Eyes 3?)! So what say you guys; should we see how many others we can round up for a gun shooting, sanity saving, beer boozing, moving making, VX good time, camping trip? Or just plan on keeping it small? Ideas, schedules?! New thread? Let's do this!

[CrnCnn]

but we don't want to turn into Jack from "The Shining"

All work and no play makes Clint a dull boy.


I am up for it, think i would like to do my tranny and CV's first but definately up for the trip.

[nfpgasmask]

I am 100% down for a nice camping trip meetup. My only issue is that I have like NO vacation time left this year. It really chaps my @ss. But, I would be willing to do a long weekend or something before the end of the year.

I'll see what my schedule is like....

Bart

Clint, Bart, Beau... maybe we should set a date for that Elko camping trip - it would be good to look forward to getting away for a bit! It would also instilll some motivation, stepping out of the ho-hum boring norm. Money is tight for me too, man... but we don't want to turn into Jack from "The Shining" - gots to have some play time!!! With Bart's imagination and a few brews and a couple VX's in the desert, I am sure we could come up with some ridiculous short film of some sort (The Hills Have Eyes 3?)! So what say you guys; should we see how many others we can round up for a gun shooting, sanity saving, beer boozing, moving making, VX good time, camping trip? Or just plan on keeping it small? Ideas, schedules?! New thread? Let's do this!

[nfpgasmask]

I am willing to hang out pretty much whenever Bart , you and I get along well I think. You seem to have a lot of knowledge concerning things that interest me. I always work Sundays unless it’s far enough in advance then I can schedule it off. It depends on what kind of uncomfortable you’re talking about by the way.

I am talking about the wearing a gas mask and NBC suit, sweating and carrying a rifle kind of uncomfortable.

If you want to go shooting soon, lets make a plan. I would like to check out that spot east of Reno sometime.

Bart

[CrnCnn]

I am talking about the wearing a gas mask and NBC suit, sweating and carrying a rifle kind of uncomfortable.

If you want to go shooting soon, lets make a plan. I would like to check out that spot east of Reno sometime.

Bart

Im down for both, let me know.